Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Some goood news, or so it seems right now :)

Got the email from RSI and my tubal blockage doesnt disqualify me as an egg donor. So whule thats pretty good news i find myself wondering, is it wrong of me to donate eggs in order to use the money towards my infertility problems? Im pretty sure its not, because while yes i would be donating ny eggs to use the money towards my own infertility issues, i would also be donating eggs whuch will potentially help other women with their own infertility problems, right????

Sunday, May 8, 2011


Such a long, sad lonely day! Today while envying all those who have been blessed with babies, i also couuldnt help but think im p30 yrs. old, maybe i should accept that im never going to have babies. Thinking like that rreally hurtts, but that couldd very well be the reality oof it all for me. Itss prettty scary tto think about, im already manic depressive and i sometimes have these spells where i will lie in bed for daays and cry. I dont know where to turn any more, hoping that RSI doesnt disqualify me because of the tubal blockage, thatt could really help me ou in the long run.. So hopefully ill get some good news this week, fingeers crossed :) Oh! Happy Mothers Day to all you waiting paatiently to be Moms!! We count to!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

mothers day. :(

Well mothers day is almost here and I'm depressed again. Id like a positive pregnancy test for mothers day, wishful thinking...I rrally have no idea what to do any more. I feel so alone and I'm so sick of all this. Some days I wish "CALGON" really could take me away. To all my readers happy moms 2 be day! And good luck in all you do!