more thinking part 2

im much much older and god calls my name, there will be nothing left of me here. and ill never have grandchildren or see my kids graduate.. And i will continue to resent my husband and some what hate him for the things hes done and for having a child to some other woman... So this is where i am today ladies..still lost alone, besides you guys :) and scared to death. On a very emotional roller coaster and its got more leaps and dips then i like... Hope you're all doing much better than i..