Friday, March 25, 2011


I have been so very depressed today, I mean this has been one of the worse days I've had in a really long time. I have done nothing but cry all day long, literally.  And of course the husband is being his usual non-supportive self and then he just says mean/ignorant heartless things to me and that just leads to arguing.  I am not in a good way right now, not at all. Usually I can cry for a couple hours and then I can put a smile on my face and pretend all is well, not today.. this just refuses to let up, I have no idea how I have any tears left to cry... I just can't help but wonder when? When is it my turn to be happy?  What did I do so wrong that all this is going on in my life?  They say good things come to those who wait, well how long exactly do I have to wait?

Sorry ladies, I'm just really not having a good day, not even a half decent day...


  1. No need to apologize for feeling this way. Your situation is a tough one. Probably tougher than most of us can even imagine. I can relate to your last few sentences though. I've thought the same thing, word for word. And I've cried over and over because of it. But the fact is you didn't do anything wrong. You only want what everyone else takes for granted - a happy life, a good marriage, a family. None of it is too much to ask and not getting it is heartbreaking.
    I hope that tomorrow brings a smile. Or at least dry eyes. (((hugs)))

  2. I am sorry you are having such a rough time. I can also relate to the questions you ask. The more questions I ask myself, the more upset I get. Sometimes it seems like a never ending cycle. Do something nice for yourself and I sincerely hope today is easier for you.

  3. Thank you so much! I find myself having another rough patch, Mother's day is coming, I'm 30 years old and still childless. I think for mothers day id like a positive pregnancy test..yeah wishful thinking...uugghh sorry I'm just feeling really down in the dumps lately ..thx for reading my blog